Chapter 87

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While making a sharp commitment inside, my body was unknowingly clinging to Kwanach. I was completely held in his arms.

Kwanach’s embrace was hard and warm as always. Kwanach pulled me closer and placed me on his lap.

I naturally leaned my face on his shoulder and rubbed my cheek. Being in contact with Kwanach, I felt secure.

Come to think of it, it had been a few days since we had been alone together like this. It was because we had been so busy after our wedding night.

My mind was occupied only with the thought that I should somehow extract a confession from Jaxor. On top of that, I had seen the cruelty in the forest, so I didn’t have the mental capacity to relax and share my love with him.

‘Maybe it was just me……’

I fell asleep first for the last few days.

‘I wonder how Kwanach spent those nights after I went to bed?’

I hugged Kwanach tightly and inhaled his body scent.

Even in a situation where we might be ambushed by Diaquit’s army, my affection swelled. It was the warmth of my man that I had not had contact with in a long time. Suddenly, I squirmed and rose in a desire that knows no time.

I wanted to kiss this man. If I did, I would be able to forget about the headache that filled my head, if only for a moment.

I lingered a little longer and dug deeper into his arms. The hand on his shoulder moved naturally. I stroked him petulantly.

It was a very raw and hard desire. How could I want to touch a man’s body? After spending my first night with Kwanach, it was as if a new feeling and emotion had been created in me.

However, when the situation was like this, the thought that Kwanach might not like this passed by. So as soon as I was about to give up my hand that was wandering over his shoulder.

“What’s the matter? Why don’t you touch me more?”

Kwanach clasped my hand tightly. I coughed for no reason. The heat stuck to my face.

Kwanach stared at me and said. His gaze seemed to bind my whole body.

“It seems that only now you have the time to be conscious of me. You haven’t looked at me for many days.”

“What? When did I …….”

“I am not criticizing you. We were busy with many things. I am the ugly one who fumed alone while watching you, who didn’t even think about it.”

”Ack…… what?”

I was so surprised that my breath caught in my throat and I almost hiccuped in mid-sentence. It was a word I thought I would never hear directly from someone’s mouth for the rest of my life.

Kwanach seemed unconcerned while uttering such a vulgar word. Rather, he hugged me more tightly and held me close to his body. I could feel Kwanach’s heart beating wildly.

“I know you weren’t in that situation… … you are too indifferent.”

“I ……. Did you do it?”

“You slept so beautifully. I couldn’t even touch you.”

“E, why didn’t you tell me?”

“What? What do you want me to do with the bottom that acted up like an animal? Isn’t it funny? I have no idea who to give it to.”

Kwanach seemed to sit still for a few days, suppressing his many emotions. When he took off his mask and revealed his true feelings, his face was full of wild desire.

It looked like the one I saw on the first night in bed.

Even though it was midday now and we were in the carriage, I felt a tightening sensation in my lower abdomen as if it were night.

Kwanach stared at me and murmured in a low voice .

“Whenever I see you, I want to stick to you and eat you. I have been feeling like that for a long time. Ever since my imagination became a reality, I’ve become more thirsty…… D*mn it.”

Kwanach’s eyes were filled with remorse and loneliness. I hurriedly wrapped his hand. His burly fingers wrapped between my fingers.

“You’re not the only one who’s ……”

I took the courage and whispered. Kwanach’s dark brows furrowed.

“I also wanted to kiss you just now….”

“……..”

“So you can tell me when you feel like that. … ugh.”

The conversation was interrupted in mid-sentence. It was because Kwanach gripped my chin with his hand, lowered his big body and kissed me.

My lips opened helplessly due to the strong force. Through the gap, the plump tongue dug in.

Oh, it’s that feeling again. Numbness spreading throughout my body as my lower belly tightened. Heat rose in every corner.

Kwanach’s body scent became more and more intense. With each breath I took, his scent penetrated deeper into my belly.

My hands shook with a shudder. It wasn’t the first time I’d kissed him, and it wasn’t the first time I’d done so through the night, but I was still completely out of my mind.

Kwanach’s tongue passed wildly over my gums. Hot saliva mixed with it. The kissing continued so roughly that my mouth tingled, then Kwanach retreated for a moment.

I opened my eyes. Kwanach was right in front of me. He was close enough that his eyelashes were oar strong.

He mumbled with his lips half in contact with mine. His voice was quite muffled.

“Right now. What if I want to do it?”

His gaze was blatant. I barely swallowed the sticky saliva in the back of my throat. After clearing my throat a couple of times, I opened my mouth.

“…… here?”

My voice cracked into a mess. The embarrassment must have been quite evident on my face.

Tak, Kwanach bumped my forehead lightly. His skin was hot like a sick man.

“You told me to tell you. We have quite a long way to go before the stop.”

“But… …isn’t it too obscene to do that in the carriage?”

I was out of breath. I took a breath like a child, cuddled by him on his lap.

My breath hitched. Like a child, I drew my breath in Quanach’s lap, still in his arms.

“I am a man who has always been far from quiet. I’ve been acting so calm that it doesn’t suit my nature. Don’t you like it?”

“It’s not that I don’t like it…….”

I couldn’t tell whether I liked it or not. Rationally, of course I should have said no, but I didn’t want to get out of the arms that held me so tightly.

My eyes were spinning. The other day, I had stuck with Kwanach all the way in the carriage, but we didn’t do it until we got to the palace.

Kwanach whispered in a low voice.

“After we mixed our bodies, it became more and more difficult for me to hold back.”

“Ha….”

Kwanach buried his lips on my neck. The rough, hot lips tickled my skin.

“It’s better when I put up with it without knowing how beautiful your body is, how arousing you make me.”

“Ha, Kwanc….”

“I can’t help it if you blame me for being a bully. If you really don’t like it, hit me as hard as you can. I think that’s how I will come to my senses.”

The moment Kwanach’s hand lifted the hem of my skirt and went inside, my mind went blank.

Everything was forgotten. All that had ever dominated my mind, including etiquette, reason, etc.

Instead of beating him as hard as I could, I left myself at his beck and call.

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The carriage we were in arrived at another palace in the north. It was adjacent to the area where Diaquit’s surprise attack was predicted.

Leading our soldiers straight to the border would look suspicious. Instead, we decided to position ourselves in a separate palace near there and join them as soon as we saw any suspicious activity.

Since the emperor and the empress moved with them, it was not surprising that many soldiers followed us. To the public, we had come to the separate palace for a vacation.

We had caught the wanted criminals, plus the winter in Radon was about to end. The emperor said that he would stay here until spring to relax and conduct his government affairs.

But the reality was not at all relaxing. Oslin, who was presiding over the political meetings at the main palace instead, would send urgent letters, asking for Kwanach’s opinion.

Kwanach was busy preparing various infrastructure projects that he intended to start once the weather warmed up. Although Kwanach said petulant things such as that he was not worthy of the position of emperor, he was a man who was more loyal to his position than anyone else.

I had been worrying about how to purify the water of the Fahal River more quickly. Only when the waterway was purified quickly and completely would the anxiety of the people come to an end.

The Fahar River flowed past the villa where we were staying. I went in and out of there on a daily basis, researching ways to destroy the technique described in Roman’s experimental records. I didn’t make any noticeable progress.

‘And the therapeutic agents produced in large quantities by Gullier…’

It was a process that involved magical power. It would be difficult to produce it voluntarily on the human continent, where wizards were extremely rare.

‘Perhaps Roman got help from a different race? Because the Gullier specialized in cross-ethnic trade.’

There was no other way to explain its smooth mass supply and demand.

Kwanach said that in the spring, dwarf races stop by the human continent for regular trade.

It seemed that if we could find out who the people were who had helped the Gullier at that time, and if we signed a contract with them, the problem of supply and demand for medicine would be solved.

Even with all this busy head rolling, we listened to the news sent by the many scouts planted on the northern side. The rallying of troops was underway in secret.

It was the tenth day in the separate palace. On the surface, it was a peaceful vacation, but behind the scenes, the days were marked by a strong sense of tension.

Still, at night, after all the political work was done, it was time to be alone with Kwanach. In the bedroom, where only the two of us exist, we could relax for a while.

I was out by the river all day today, so I hardly saw Kwanach at all. Even though we had only been apart for half a day, I was happy to see him again in the bedroom.

I couldn’t believe that just seeing his face made me feel better.

‘I must have really fallen for this man.’

I was aware of this now.

To share affection and thereby forget all the anxiety and worry for a moment and fall into a sweet sense of security.

This was love.

It was that feeling that I was unfamiliar with and had never even imagined when I was getting married to Kwanach.

Now it was casual and natural.