Chapter 268 There’s a Mermaid at Home Epilogue (Anson)

【Only because of you, I wish to use my life to continue your brilliance. ——Anson】

Opening my eyes again, and the deep blue sea has already become a mulberry field, but they are still, as ever, a loving couple.

I stand in the clouds, looking down on the whole world, and my sad eyes fall on that man’s body, in such pain, unable to breathe.

I am jealous. I am jealous of that man. He is stronger than me in every respect, more outstanding than me, and more able to obtain your heart.

My love is no less than his, but in the end, I can’t even get you to glance back at me. Even in death I’m unable to let you know that someone else also once liked you.

I have hate, hate at my loss, hate at my cowardice, but I don’t complain.

Watching you stand together for more than 500 years, watching him shed bloody tears after you left, and then taking the mecha to accompany you to sleep in the deep sea.

My heart is empty. You, the one I’ve always loved has left. You haven’t reincarnated, you haven’t reentered the cycle. You just disappeared like that from my world.

If I had been a bit braver, could I have competed with him for you?

Ahh… I know it is impossible, but I have always been harboring an extravagant hope, until my hope turned into despair.

XunMi Thetis. This is the one name I have remembered up until now. On one hand sorrowful, on the other glad.

You left full of glory.

He left, and took you with him.

But I was left behind. I don’t understand, I’ve never understood. Why do I still have consciousness? Why can I not start over?

To erase my memories and be a happy and simple person?

At this point, I understand. It’s selfishness to be haunted. I am unwilling to forget you though you only exist as a figure in my memory.

I think there will come a day when I will probably forget you. I will really forget you, and go live my own life.

The world is big. To be born, grow old, to get sick and die. Living creatures grow and multiply without end. But I have become eternal.

Year 5201 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that Imperial Admiral August Ludovic and Deep Sea Mermaid XunMi Thetis entered the Assembly Hall hand in hand, lighting up the Empire with the most beautiful rays of hope.

Year 5203 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that Imperial Admiral August along with his wife wiped out the Bug Clan, thoroughly driving the Bug Clan out of the galaxy, never again daring to invade.

Year 5206 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that Lady XunMi Thetis led the mermaids to walk on the road to self-improvement, established the Mermaid Association, and took up the post of chairman.

Year 5210 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that the Federation wanted to assassinate the Admiral’s wife, in order to take advantage of the chaos to attack the Empire, but they were destroyed by the Admiral’s wife’s regiment.

Year 5213 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that the Federation was completely reunified with the Empire, and Admiral August served as Supreme Director General.

Year 5216 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that humankind and the Sea People once again began formal trade, and they interacted harmoniously.

Year 5357 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that mermaid genes were completely refined, and transformed mermaids could walk on their legs for a short time. This was all due to the contributions of the Director General’s wife.

Year 5400 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that the Director General and his wife handed everything over and completely disappeared.

… …

Year 5735 of the Norman Empire, it is recorded that the Empire’s formerly most important and most powerful person passed away along with his wife. The whole nation was in mourning and brought down the national emblem for one week in order to show respect.

Looking at the constantly refreshing news, my tears fall, accompanied by a torrent of heavy rain, pouring down on the entire world.

Carrying my pain, my sadness, my grief.

Yes, I thought I would die with Andrew, but I didn’t expect that I would awake one day.

After awaking, I found I’d become a new god. A god of order, in this space, guarding the surviving people.

But how sad I am, they need me to protect them, but what about me? Who can protect me?

Watching her has already become my habit. Now that she is also gone, how should I endure these lonely years?

XunMi, do you know? You seem to have disappeared without any cares, but for me who was left behind, what kind of suffering I’ve endured.

I don’t know when I saw that, in short, the opportunity I missed has already been lost, and what I have lost cannot be returned.

Of course, we didn’t miss it. It was just my own cowardice, but the outcome is still the same, and I can’t go back.

I hope that I can still have the right to be willful enough to follow you, but the high mountain pressing down on my body cannot be budged.

When I was young, I thought fondly of my mother’s tenderness and kindness. When I grew up, I made myself into that kind of person.

They all said that I was the ideal Prince Charming, and the most gentle dream lover.

I also thought this way until I met you. You broke my shackles.

It made me crazy. I wanted to explode. I dared to do anything.

The only thing I dared not do was tell you that I like you, and even love you, could you also look at me?

Sea goddess, ah. The symbol of purity and forgiveness. How could you, so spotlessly white, possibly like me who is so filthy?

So I timidly retreated. I was scared. The one time I wanted to take the opportunity to work with you, was so I could be by your side for a little while.

But I was still rejected. My heart felt cold.

I hid quietly in the shadows, looking at your smile, and imagining that one day you could smile at me like that too. That was enough.

Still awaiting my perfect dream, I saw you leave in a hurry. I couldn’t help worrying and followed.

This has become the final conclusion between us.

At the moment of facing death, I felt free, light, and even happy.

However, God does not care for me after all.

Amongst the pure white clouds, the figure of a man flickered in and out of sight, so I was unable to see him distinctly.

The only thing that could be seen clearly were those eyes, and in the long and narrow eyes there was a tenderness that would cause a person to feel absorbed in them.

Gazing at the blue ocean under my feet, I hear it muttering and weeping.

It was saying, my god, why did you leave in such a hurry, leaving me all alone.

I thought to myself, we are both pitiful. We were both left behind.

Gradually, I made it a habit to stare at the ocean. I don’t know if I was trying to see her through looking at the ocean, or if I was just watching the ocean nurture its spirits.

It’s very cute. When it’s happy, the surface lifts in beautiful ocean spray. When it’s sad, it causes unceasing waves.

It is also very naughty. When a ship passes by, it deliberately blows the waves to rise up and slap the bow, making the people on the ship lose their heads out of fear, while it hides to the side to clap its hands and laugh happily.

It is also very kind. It never hurts a life, and its pranks never go too far. Sometimes when it encounters a cruise ship that is about to run into peril, it immediately stabilizes the surface of the sea, allowing the cruise ship to return to the shore, more scared than hurt.

Watching like this for I don’t know how many centuries, today I find that the sea surface is tranquil, with nary a ripple.

That’s odd. Don’t tell me Xiao Ling hasn’t woken up today?

Yes, I gave it a name. Xiao Ling, little ocean spirit.

Soon, I receive the answer. A golden light appears in the midst of a sudden whirlpool.

The light fades, and a slim and elegant young lady appears. She has a head of long, ocean-blue hair, and an ocean-blue tail. Standing on the ocean’s surface, she is beautiful beyond compare.

Just like her before, she arrives on this earth bright and dazzling.

But I know she is not her. She has passed away with my memory, and she has become my eternity at this moment.

I say softly: Xiao Ling, hello. We are meeting for the first time. Kindly give me your advice.[1]

Translator’s Notes

[1] This is just a polite phrase upon meeting someone; he’s not really looking for advice.