Chapter 75

Chapter 75

Then, what the hell am I supposed to say?

‘Should I kneel down and beg…?’

“I…if you want an apology, just… I will do that.”

I’m going to do it, for you and for me! Okay, sorry for drinking, is that all right? …Of course, I couldn’t say that, so I had to refine the expression a bit.

“I’m really sorry that I brought it to you and fed you. You said you wouldn’t eat it, but I…”

A memory flashed in an instant.

“But, you also stole my drink, didn’t you?”

It was also very sloppy. I was drunk, so I said I’ll stop drinking yet I drank very well. As Amoide was thinking about it, I saw his eyebrows wriggle.

“…Of course, it happened because I was drinking in the first place. I know, it’s all my fault.”

“You said you don’t remember, but you remember those things well.”

“Huh… I must have been less drunk by then.”

“Then, what else?”

Asking that, he leaned a little closer.

No, I have nowhere else to retreat, so why do you keep coming…? I staggered back. However, the bench behind me, his hands on either side. The front—

“If you run away, I won’t leave you alone.”

His patience seemed to have reached its limit.

“Just try to run away with those short legs? Give up.”

“Because I am short!”

Still, I can’t stand this.

“You’re being too much, huh? You are big. You have needlessly long legs…! Just wrap a person’s body and don’t let go! Are you a snake!”

As I vomited my words for a while, his cool expression caught my eye. Why is he doing that again?

“You remember it very well.”

He nodded slowly and spoke.

Oh, someone glue my mouth shut, please.

I prayed earnestly.

“…It will never happen again, I swear.”

I raised my right hand.

“Again, no, if I ever ask you to drink with me, my name is Valene, not Selene.”

I continued speaking with my hand on my chest, “Let’s just completely forget about that day. Cut it neatly with a knife and throw it away, okay?”

As I uttered while pretending to cut it into small pieces using my index and middle fingers, his gaze at the shape of my hand changed strangely once again.

“I don’t think we were the only ones who knew what happened that night.”

“…That doesn’t matter.”

Again, what is so important? It was strange to care about such a reputation.

“It has always been that way. Every time, every month, every day, we were supposed to spend the night.”

It has always been that way.

At least, the people in this mansion think we do something about it periodically to produce successors. In reality, we quietly took our pillows and went to sleep, but…

“Whatever they misunderstood or not. Isn’t it the most important thing to erase from your memory?”

So, I’ll forget it.

If only the two of us agreed that it was something that didn’t happen, then everything would be resolved.

“So, let’s pretend it didn’t happen. What happened that day was just a bad dream I had while drinking, nothing more, nothing less.”

“A bad dream…?”

“Yes, it is a bad dream. It’s like a hangover that comes after drinking.”

For a moment, I could see him taking a deep breath. Amoide took a few deep breaths, inhaling the air through his lungs.

“What’s wrong? Are you sick?”

Seeing that, I quickly put my hand on his heart. As soon as my hand touched it, he grabbed it tightly.

“Ah…”

He was startled by the small scream and loosened the strength of his hand.

“Put it away.”

I staggered back at the harsh sound of speaking.

“Your meaning, I understand very well.”

“….”

“Yes, forget everything.”

There was a chilling sound in my ear.

“Everything.”

“…”

He got up and rummaged through his pockets to get something from it.

“Ah.”

What came with his hand was the earring I had lost. Amoide placed it on the palm of my hand and turned around. He strode away from where I was. I liked the look of it.

…Maybe, he’ll look back

It seemed like he was, but he just kept walking.

What big mistake did I make?

Looking back, there was nothing special about it. I’m just going to do whatever I want, so why? I’m going to erase those unpleasant memories very cleanly, like washing stains, so why the hell…?

“What do you want me to do…?”

I slumped down in my seat.

I made a huge accident. There was no way to fix that, except for just going back to what didn’t happen. Nothing could be done

‘But, why is he doing that?’

Why did he have such an angry face and the face that looked like the world had collapsed…?

“…I’m concerned.”

I couldn’t get over it at all.

***

How many times has she run away already?

Amoide gazed at Selene turning away from him again, and tried to count the number of times. From that night on, she was busy running away whenever she saw him. If he had to say anything, she would squeal and take a step backward.

When he revealed himself, she would stand far away and she would walk at such a speed that again the hem of her dress fluttered.

Every time she did, he could catch her, but he didn’t. He wanted to wait.

But, before…

When she ran away, even after bumping right in front of him, his chain of reason was cut off. As if she had met a molester, she was relentless in running away. He squatted down by the bench and watched as she sighed in relief, wiping away her sweat.

There was only one thought that came to mind.

She hated it so much. Does she want to avoid him this much?

〈 Because I love you. 〉

She was a woman who also falsely confessed.

To cheat, to deceive him…

She was a woman who’s done acting with her bandages wrapped around her hands. Her intention to enter this mansion in the first place was impure.

Still, he was shaken by those words.

Selena was a strangely imposing woman, while she told obvious lies. The reason why his reason exploded as she looked away was because of Emma’s words.

〈 Oh my God, she holds a quill and writes well with her bandaged hands. 〉

He used to think she was pretty good at writing with a hurt hand. To some extent, he even thought she was recovering. However, he didn’t know that she was fine.

He was crazy, he was angry, and then… he finally exploded.

But…

Is that the reason he was angry?

〈 You must live a long and healthy life. 〉

The sound of holding his sleeping hand and whispering was still vivid. Amoide believed it was all a lie to give birth to his own child. Still…

〈 If you are healthy, you can divorce me. You’ll just have to get a woman from a better family as my bride. 〉

…Getting a divorce?

She wants another woman to be his wife?

Amoide got angry at the thought of pouring out those words even when she came with alcohol by his side and asked him to have a drink with her.

“…Let’s do something that never happened.”

Ha.

A long, deep sigh escaped his mouth.

〈 So, let’s pretend it didn’t exist. What happened that day was just a bad dream I had while drinking, nothing more, nothing less. 〉

That story lingered in his ears for a long time. While thinking about it not once, though several times, one conclusion was reached…

He knew Selene really wanted to forget what she did that night.

“It’s a bad dream…”

Even if she spends the night together and in that secret time together.

〈 Let’s pretend it didn’t happen. 〉

Even then, how can she say with such an unconcerned face that they should do everything ‘as it never happened’?

How, how…

No matter how much he thought while pulling his hair out, it was no use. Because there was only one answer.

“As expected.”

A self-pitying smile appeared on his lips. In fact, he didn’t even know what it was.

“…You probably don’t want to be involved with someone who is going to die, anyway.”

* * *

“Rona, you…”

As soon as I returned to my room, I glanced at Lorna.

“I’m sorry, Madam.”

Rona raised her hands and put them in front of her face like begging as she opened her mouth, “But, I couldn’t help it.”

When she opened her eyes like a rabbit, I spoke again.

“People are loyal! When did you say, ‘I will do anything for you.’”

“It’s because the madam can’t see the Master’s eyes!”

She cried out in shame.

“What happened?”

“If I don’t disappear right away, the world will be over.”

“…Was it that much?”

I could expect from the chill felt from behind, but in reality, it was much more.

“Of course, because it was no joke. Just thinking about it, ugh…”

Rona said, shaking her body.

“Then, why was he so angry?”

Hmm… We talked at the same time and gazed at each other’s faces at the same time.

“…Well?”

“The Madam doesn’t even know?”

“Yes…”

“He seems really angry. After I leave, I wonder what the Master will do to the Madam…”

“You mean you left me while you were thinking like that?”

“No way, what will the Master have to do? Roughly…”

“Roughly, what?”

“Roughly expressing his love. I was worried about it.”

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