Chapter 78 Not Eager Nor Regretful

The door opened and there stood Zhuo Jingren with a serious expression on his face. He strode forward and stopped right in front of her wordlessly with an intense gaze that was almost threatening. His face was so close that Lily could smell the light scent of his aftershave.

Lily stared into his eyes which had obviously darkened. For a second, Lily thought that he was angry because she doubted his manhood? But before she could continue pondering over the matter, Zhuo Jingren yanked her towards him, his mouth covered hers in a heated kiss.

What surprised Lily even more was the way her hands naturally moved to wrap themselves around Zhuo Jingren’s neck, leaving her clothes slightly open which exposed a little of her fair skin. Her lips gave in obediently and she kissed him back just the way she wanted to be kissed. Lily felt heat rising in her cheeks when Zhuo Jingren pulled her deeper into his embrace where she immediately felt a bulge down below. It did not even take a second for Lily to guess what it was.

The kiss started off as hot and warm. Their lips fit perfectly together, in sync with each other. Then it turned into something fast, aggressive and almost demanding. Lost in the heat of the moment, Lily let out a small moan which seemed to have ignited something inside Zhuo Jingren.

But for him, this was not the right time to take things further. He abruptly stopped the kiss to catch his breath, his forehead resting on hers.

Then he straightened his back and looked at Lily who seemed to be in a daze. “I’m sorry I lost control,” he said. “But as you can see, I don’t have a problem down there.” He grinned before he continued, “Let’s have breakfast together. I will wait for you downstairs.” Then he exited the bathroom, leaving Lily behind who just seemed to realize what had happened.

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“You Idiot!” Lily cursed as she clenched her fists, disbelief written all over her scarlet face. Zhuo Jingren stopped! He stopped! The kiss left as quickly as it came. This…

What was more uncomfortable than being left cold just like that? She immediately stared at her reflection in the mirror in front of her. Her pyjamas was opened, revealing her pale white skin and cleavage while her hair was a little messy. With her current looks, which man could actually resist her! How could he do this? Was she not alluring enough?

A sudden irritation flashed in Lily’s eyes. No. She needed to know why he stopped. Without an answer, she would not be able to stop thinking about it. Lily was sure that she would go crazy if she does not receive an answer later.

With this in mind, she took a quick bath and dressed herself. Then she went downstairs and head straight into the kitchen.

“Perfect timing.” She heard him say as he put a bowl of congee down on the table, next to a plate of piping hot steamed buns. Zhuo Jingren had a smile on his face as he took a seat across Lily. He seemed unaffected by what happened earlier which made Lily feel more irritated. 

“Zhuo Jingren…” she said with a serious look on her face. She made a deliberate pause before continuing, “Tell me honestly. Do you have a problem with me?”

Zhuo Jingren immediately raised an eyebrow at her. “Of course not! Why would you ask that?”

“Then what is it? Is it my body? You think I’m too skinny?” she asked bluntly before she narrowed her eyes at him. “Is that the reason why you wanted me to eat more? You think I couldn’t…” she swallowed her saliva. “You think I couldn’t take you?”

“What? No! Of course not!” he answered, surprised by her aggressive questions.

“Then why did you stop earlier?” Seeing the change in Zhuo Jingren’s expression, Lily realized that the man was actually surprised by her bluntness. Did she regret asking such questions? Of course not! It was better to know these things as early as possible ah.

“I am…. I am not eager nor regretful about what happened,” she added, afraid that Zhuo Jingren might misunderstand her questions as eagerness to do the deed. She was not eager alright? Just curious.

“I was actually not expecting you to be this blunt,” he answered after a minute of silence. “But this is what I love about you.”

“Before we left for Japan, I received some results from the investigations I ordered my men to conduct regarding what happened seven years ago,” he said, his gaze never leaving hers. Then his hand slowly reached out to grab hers, squeezing it. “I know that you were drugged that night.”

“I am actually…” He made a deliberate pause as he stared at her face, his gaze gentle. “I was afraid that you had only done it with me because you were drugged.” He let out a sigh and gave her a sad smile. “You were drunk that night and you were also the one who kissed me first. I thought you were… well I just thought that whatever you did was under the influence of the drugs that someone had stealthily put into your drink. So I don’t want to force you into anything right…”

“Idiot!” Lily interrupted Zhuo Jingren. “Even the strongest aphrodisiacs won’t have that kind of effect on a woman. Did you think I was some protagonist in a novel who was drugged with an aphrodisiac by her enemy? 

Zhuo Jingren was silenced by her words. He just stared at Lily who had just started on her bun.

“I was drugged with something that would make me lose my inhibitions and not some legendary aphrodisiacs like those in novels and films. Since you didn’t know this, I suppose you still haven’t found the person who spiked my drink?” she took another bite of the steamed bun. Zhuo Jingren nodded in response.

“What you did…no… what you didn’t do just now made me think that there was something wrong with me,” she added. “What I am trying to say is… next time, don’t stop.”

Zhuo Jingren froze at Lily’s words. His eyes widened as he looked at her. “Did you mean… Seven years ago…”

“You silly man, I kissed you because I genuinely thought that you were hot,” Lily clarified, making him speechless once again. So what happened back then was not because of the drug?

A surge of happiness seemed to radiate all over Zhuo Jingren as his lips curled into a smile.

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Editor: Swaning