Chapter 115

1 hour before confirming that surprising fact—

I was looking out the window, praying that the blue roses would not bloom.

‘God of the moon and of the stars of the night sky. May your wonderful power continue to shine unbroken.’

Like this day in my previous life.

Like this day in my life that I went through seven times.

May the dark clouds not come and swallow me… 

Until my earnestness reached the sky, I prayed and prayed.

Rixus would be waiting for me by now.

So please, just for tonight, just for tonight, please allow us a peaceful and happy time.

‘If you don’t let the blue roses bloom today… … I will gladly accept that fate has been harsh on me.’

Always cruelly abandoned by my parents.

Growing up alone in the poisonous swamp in the most fragile and unstable time of my life, vomiting blood.

I was not loved by anyone and lived my entire life alone as a being who was feared by everyone.

To have always been wretchedly killed by the same person… 

I would accept that it was all my fate that I was able to do it for the happiness of today.

I would no longer resent the heavens.

‘So please, please…’

I muttered as I gazed at the moon, saying that I had never prayed so fervently before.

Such a wish was only made when there was something precious that I wanted to protect.

It was only in this life that I had such a thing.

It was only in this life that I realized the happiness I did not want to let go of even when death approached.

The eyes looking at the night sky were shining more earnestly than ever.

Then, at some point, all of a sudden.

……Dark clouds began to gather.

“!”

I saw the moon dyed red in an instant and my eyes widened.

An ominous feeling gripped the base of my neck.

And, at the same time—

Rixus was looking out the window in his bedroom.

‘The moon has turned red all of a sudden.’

It was bizarre. Why was the moon red?

There was also a night where Rixus had seen the red moon before.

When his position was still unstable in the Imperial Palace, the nobles had sent him into an unreasonable subjugation in the name of protecting the country.

It was meant for him to not come back alive, but to die on the battlefield.

It was a disgraceful night in which he survived, but those he did not save lost their lives.

No matter how hard he tried, the red moon appeared in the sky on that night when he had to wash his body with the warm blood of his subordinates.

It was the moment when the illumination of the night became even darker.

That suffocating night he thought of Berylia, and endured.

His only desire to see her once more had come to this day, while holding tight to the stem of his miserable life.

‘Berylia…’

He waited for his whole life, so the wait for tonight was nothing.

‘You’re late.’

However, he was concerned about what she was thinking alone.

When he said earlier that he wanted to spend the night together, she replied that she liked the idea, yet why did she have an anxious look?

Why was she hesitating for a while?

That small moment, the gap of silence.

Each one made Rixus think.

The experience of once nearly losing her had heightened his senses.

He felt that he had to find out her every detail and check every single down of her hair to unlock her.

“What else are you thinking about alone…?”

Rixus’ sharp eyes were directed towards the red moon.

Right then.

Tuduk, tuk—

The unwelcome rain began to slowly knock on the window.

* * *

‘No.’

I was in a state of panic when the dark clouds came and covered the sky in black.

It started raining just like that.

The bright red moon hung in the midst of it.

Everything trembled. I knew all too well what was going to happen next. It had been repeated seven times, so this was enough to hurt my bones.

The red moon would rise, the rain would fall, and the lunar eclipse would begin.

And… 

“It can’t be. It can’t be this time too.”

I whispered like a scream.

‘This life has been different!’

‘It’s different from any other life where I’ve tried to avoid it.’

Tuktuk, tuktuk, swoooo—

As it gradually turned into heavy rain, my heart became so urgent that I ran out, ignoring the escort and the maid.

Before I knew it, I was walking around the garden barefoot.

I stood under the clock tower with the best view of the red moon.

“….…”

Then I clasped my hands tightly against my chest and directed my eyes to the raining sky.

I didn’t even know that my thin chemise was getting soaked.

I didn’t know that my body was getting cold, because I was so desperate.

“…Please let me make it through tonight safely. Anyone, please listen.”

Not knowing exactly who was listening to this voice, I begged God, who must have been somewhere.

“It’s okay to be killed countless times in the future, just once.”

Please, just once… 

Even at this moment, I wanted to go to Rixus, who was waiting for me.

If the blue roses bloomed on my body today, the person who fell in love with me would be so pitiful… 

Midnight came with so much pain.

Dang— Dang— Dang—

I heard the sound of the bell ringing from the clock tower.

The red moon was still in the sky, but there was no lunar eclipse.

“……Uh?”

I frantically looked down at my body.

The arms, back of the hand, and above the chest. Belly, lower belly, thighs… 

Thanks to the drenched chemise, I could see every nook and cranny of my body.

“No……!”

It changed.

Could it be on my back? I briefly thought about it, but the bright red moon floating in the sky cleared my doubts.

If it had been the same, a lunar eclipse would have occurred by now and the world would have been colored black.

Something different from the seven previous lives had happened!

When the last bell finally rang, I didn’t know what to do with my heart that was pounding with joy.

Like a lunatic, I covered my mouth with both hands and burst into laughter.

I was so relieved that I felt like I was about to burst into tears.

“Berylia…!”

Just then, I heard a voice coming from behind my back.

I turned around slowly to confirm the owner of the voice.

Under the sky that poured rain, Rixus stood.

He seemed perplexed, and hurried up to me and took off the robe he was wearing and covered me.

“What are you doing here alone…”

“I think I can love you to my heart’s content, Rixus.”

I said to him in a voice that quivered like crazy.

The movement of Rixus, who was putting the robe on my body, stopped.

Rixus looked at me silently.

“…….”

Tears welled up from joy, and I covered his cheek with both hands and whispered.

“I love you.”

It was the first time. Expressing the heart that had always been hidden and reduced in this way.

My heart felt like it was going to explode as soon as it came out of my mouth.

“I love you, Rixus.”

At that moment, he hugged me as if he would crush my waist and kissed me.

Our lips met and our wet tongues intertwined relentlessly. Emotions that could not be put into words flowed through our connected mouths.

The sound of the rain falling down gradually got farther away, and all our nerves were focused on each other.

The night was long.

* * *

Bang!

The door slammed shut behind our backs.

The quiet space was filled with the sultry sound of wet tongues intertwining.

Rixus was caressing and kissing me until the moment the door closed.

It was a kiss with a deep tempo that was never rushed. Still, I could feel the soft passion.

“Ha…….”

‘Does he know that this will cause me to be even more stimulated?’

He must have known all of this.

His tongue slid off my lips and gently licked my neckline, leaving a hot trail all over.

In the meantime, the soaked clothes adhered to each other and were warmed with our scorching body temperature.

My lower stomach felt hot as if he was hugging my bare body.

It was embarrassingly exciting.

‘…I have a high fever and I can’t think properly…’

I gripped his broad, firm shoulders, and bore a dazed expression.

His large hands that touched my whole body were so skillful and hot that I kept biting my lips.

Wearing wet clothes and tangled up like this, I felt like I was going crazy.

Then Rixus’ hand dug into my wet chemise, to my thighs.

“Rixus…!”

Only then did I call him like a scream between my red lips.

“Wait, we got wet from the rain. We should dry ourselves first…”

Still, it was the first night between the queen and the crown prince, and it was embarrassing to proceed instinctively like beasts.

Rixus looked down at my flushed face and licked my ear in indignation.

When his tongue touched the sensitive area, a moan came out without me knowing.

He continued rubbing and licking it, and every time his hot breath flew into my ear, it felt like every single hair on my body was standing up straight.

As he did so, I could feel him pulling the front of my underwear with his index finger.

Even the slightest pressure was stimulating now that it was sensitive.

“Ha…….”

In the end, I leaned my head on his chest as if I was being captured, and breathed heavily.

Then, as Rixus swept me into his arms, he whispered lowly.

“Why are you drying yourself…”

Tug—

His index finger went down slowly, pulled my underwear down, and took it off.

His voice fell into my ears.

“You’ll be wet all night anyway.”

Goosebumps came up.